腐敗...

社會腐敗...
家庭腐敗...
世界腐敗...
待殘骸腐化...
讓污濁的一切化為烏有...


說話帶刺...
不理會他人感受...
傷了人家...
又有谁知道...


打我啊...
殺了我更好...
少一個負擔...少一個勞心的東西...
反正我就是一個大負擔...
永遠都長不打...
反正我對社會又沒什麼貢獻...
少我一個沒差...

遺棄...

被世界徹底拋棄...
永遠的一個人...
寂寞著...
曾經何時...
我是那麼地期待...
我是那麼的在乎...
原來在他人眼裡...我什麼都不是...
我承認...我輸給了寂寞...
輸給了夜晚...
輸給了世界...輸給了自己...
我討厭的東西...正是我每天都在做的事情...
明天又得偽裝了吧...
人生好累...
我什麼都沒有...
有的東西似乎隨手可得...但是它卻離我如此的遙遠...
我累了...
我不能再把注意力投入在它身上啊...
越來越沒把握的生活...
沒有人知道...
也沒有人會聽見...
就算聽見了...看見了又怎樣...
他人就只是會徹底的無視我...
我只不過是想要讓人看到我...
哪怕就那麼一次...
看起來多麼令人討厭的臉龐...
這就是我...
我改變不了的事實...
我還能擁有甚麼...
還是我就只能放棄一切...
放棄自己...


拋棄自己的人...也會被世界拋棄...
地球不會因為你而停止轉動...
沒有了你...世界照樣生存...
每個人都在忙碌自己的生活...
沒有人會在意你...
根本就不會有...


一個人很獨立...
但是我卻如此脆弱...
一個人很堅強...
但武裝的背後傷痕累累...


每個人都說自己受承受過的委屈傷害有多麼的重...
那我的呢???
難道我沒有嗎...難道我不是受害者嗎???
我本來就沒那麼看得開...
秘密都只收起來...
我不知道何時會爆發出來...
我只知道...
我需要一個可以讓我爆發的人...


我何曾不是嘗試過想告訴一個人...我的心事...
結果...還不就只是被忽略...反倒自己成為了他人的傾聽者...
那是我第一次告訴別人我的心事...
也是最後一次...


[你就是如此失敗...
受傷了就怕不起來...]
那個人是這麼說我的...
對啊...我承認我的懦弱...
我就是懦夫...
我不要批評...至少在那個時候請不要批評我...
我測試過...我還有心跳...心會疼痛的...
我不要安慰...至少在那個時候輕不要安慰我...
我嘗試過...安慰只不過是在傷口上撒鹽...傷口會更痛...
我不需要眼淚...至少聽見我故事的人不要在我面前哭泣...
我知道的...這不是他人應該經歷的事情...
我不沉默...至少那個時候不要無言以對...
我只會感覺被人徹底的無視...與忽略...
我不要被質問...至少那個時候聽我說話就好...
我想說的...我自然會說...
作為報答...我會以傾聽者的身分來聆聽他人的故事...無論他人想不想說...
我的要求很多嗎???


星星被烏雲阻擋了視線...也不會放棄被月亮看見的機會...
海水覆蓋在沙灘上...沙子也會發出聲音讓海洋知道...它並不畏懼...
書本上黑白的字眼...被深刻的烙印在腦海中的片刻...
鍵盤上的琴鍵...被指尖碰觸的片刻...
水波倘佯的湖邊...被蜻蜓點水的片刻...
CD被放置...被點播的片刻...
寂寞的夜晚...我想念的片刻...
燈管氾濫的窗...窗簾被拉攏的片刻...
世界安靜了下來...
情緒瞬間爆發...
眼前一片黑暗...
心中還擁有一絲光芒的原因...是因為你...
沒希望的時候...我會想到你...
卻令自己更加的絕望...
因為我一直都知道...
你都不知道...
心再怎麼掙扎...
極度想放棄...
徹底崩潰...
沒希望了...
我還是無法覺醒...
就為了你...
就只是因為你...
你知道嗎???


我讓自己的心狠狠的碎著...
心痛著...
我不快樂....

破碎...

心徹底破碎..

失敗...

活得真失敗...
總是輸給了自己...
是我把自己想得太強大了吧...
才會獲得如此的下場...
我以為我自己能辦到...
原來我真的沒那麼強大...
抱歉...
我很令人反感吧...
所以...為了不再令人討厭...
我只好...又一個人了...
我得承認...我很在乎別人對我的看法...
或許這行為很幼稚...
但是...也讓我了解我對人們還有一點點的在意...
我並不能完全無視...也不能完全麻木於世界...
真可悲...
我沒那麼看得開啊...
所以....又做出了很多自謔的東西...
嚴重的強迫自己...搞得自己很累...
還那麼逞強...
連笑容都可以那麼牽強...
對著鏡子練習著...更讓我感覺到自己的虛偽度有多高...


我很誇張是嗎???
我只不過是尊重他人的心情罷了...
他人生日時...唱生日歌是最基本的慶祝方式...
然而...那些聽到卻不配合的人...
是怎樣???裝清高嗎???
對不起...讓人感受到自己真的被人記得...這才是他人最想要的...
我深信這個信念...
因為我不希望下一個生日的壽星在生日的時候...
有種不被重視...不被尊重的感覺...


我很努力的改變自己...
結果導致性格扭曲...
還有極度自謔的現象...
還迷失了自己...
我的改變...毀了一切...
生活得很疲憊...
人生很空虛...
試著站起來...
卻狠狠得跌回去...
是我沒用盡全力...才會獲得如此的下場...
我活該...
我脆弱...
我虛假...


很想念你...
很期待你...
很喜歡你...
知道的...
也只有自己了...

喘息...

疲憊的身體...
感動的節奏...
閉上眼睛...
莫名其妙的失落的了起來...
我只是沉默而已...
片刻也好...
不需要有人來打擾...
表情冷漠了點...
或許看起來恐怖了一些...
但我享受這短短幾分鐘的喜悅...
很真實...但我不會珍惜...
因為只有這樣...
才會拼命為自己找到下次的機會...
縱使犯賤...
也不後悔...

breathless -Shayne Ward [純分享]

If our love was a fairy tale

I would charge in and rescue you

On a yacht baby we would sail

To an island where we'd say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you

It'd be so beautiful if that came true

You don't even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless

You're everything good in my life

You leave me breathless

I still can't believe that you're mine

You just walked out of one of my dreams

So beautiful you're leaving me

Breathless

And if our love was a story book

We would meet on the very first page

The last chapter would be about

How I'm thankful for the life we've made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes

I would fall deeper watching you give life

You don't even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless

You're everything good in my life

You leave me breathless

I still can't believe that you're mine

You just walked out of one of my dreams

So beautiful you're leaving me

Breathless

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me

You're like an angel

The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me

You're something special

I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me

But all I can do is try

Every day of my life

You leave me breathless

You're everything good in my life

You leave me breathless

I still can't believe that you're mine

You just walked out of one of my dreams

So beautiful you're leaving me

Breathless

sad eyes-Enrique Iglesias [純分享]

Every day here you come walking 
I hold my tongue,
I don't' do much talking
You say you're happy and you're doin' fine
Well go ahead, baby, I got plenty of time


because Sad eyes never lie
because Sad eyes never lie


Well for a while I've been watching you steady
Ain't gonna move 'til you're good and ready
You show up and then you shy away
But I know pretty soon you'll be walking this way


because Sad eyes never lie
because Sad eyes never lie

Baby don't you know I don't care
Don't you know that I've been there
Well if something in the air feels a little unkind
Don't worry darling, it'll slip your mind


I know you think you'd never be mine
Well that's okay, baby, I don't mind
That shy smile's sweet, that's a fact
Go ahead, I don't mind the act
Here you come all dressed up for a date 
Well one more step and it'll be too late


Blue blue ribbon in you hair
Like you're so sure I'll be standin there 


I could Sad eyes ~never lie~
I could Sad eyes ~never lie~
I could Sad eyes ~never lie~
I could Sad eyes ~never lie~

Sad eyes~